What I wish to say

When somebody asks how I’m

I wish to say

I actually do really feel

     Unloved

And

     Nugatory

And like

     A burden

This d e p r e s s i o n

Is a ravenous parasite

Sucking out all the sunshine

I’ve left

I’ve misplaced my sight.

I wish to say

That my ideas

Are incessantly pushing weight in opposition to my shoulders

And that’s the reason I shake typically

I’m relentlessly preventing a boxing match

That you simply can not see

However my vitality

Is now fleeting.

I wish to say

That

     S m i l i n g

Has grow to be a

Magic trick

However I am most likely the worst

     Magician

You already know

But

I’m a grasp at

     Pretending

All is okay.

I wish to say

That I’m

     D r o w n i n g

These partitions are caving in

And I not know how you can survive

It is like I am attempting to swim

However my palms and toes are tied.

I wish to say

That this disappointment

Has contaminated my lungs

So respiration has grow to be an

     A b o m i n a t i o n.

I wish to say

That life has torn

On the verge of my power

I’m  n u m b 

I’m  e m p t y.

My grave

Is that this physique.

However I might relatively not ravage

Somebody’s temper

With my  t r a g i c  h o n e s t y

So I goof away

Like the whole lot is a laughing matter

And I say one thing acceptable, like:

“I am alright. How are you?”

Whats up! I’m Muskaan, a Psychology Undergraduate from Queen Mary College of London. I’m at present on my placement 12 months working in a college. I’m sharing my experiences by poetry – a medium that has helped me all through my struggles of psychological well being, with the hope to assist and encourage others.